You will learn to live with it.. and you will be whole again!

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Life will change you…

if this time and experience has shown me anything it’s this… loss is very real… and so is grief… and you can’t hide from it…  but by experiencing this moment, by experiencing loss in a way that feels raw and eventually being able to understand how it feels inside, I have been given life’s most important gift… the gift of feeling whole again…

i don’t know that I want to ignore how this has effected me, to finally face the aspects of life I’d hidden. It feels……. real! And finally it feels ok… ok to be me… all of me… I realised it’s ok to speak up, to say:

hey, I experienced this, I hoped you’d understand, but I’m ok that you don’t, I’m ok that you can’t, I’m ok that you aren’t able to find it within yourself to reflect and see past my brokenness ~ because I am healing and I’m ok that I won’t be the same as I was before my truma ~ mostly I’m ok that I was able to understand yours, because it means I’m human and I’m growing” 

I am here, writing these words, words I hope bring others peace, words that speak only truth, words that shine a light on trauma and emotional illness, and let those who are lost know that they are understood… and most of all, that eventually they will heal…

but they will never truly be the same, nor should they want to be… these experiences make us, going through this has helped me find a level of compassion that is beyond the levels I thought I had… it’s helped me reflect on my own journey, those impacted by my decisions and how it led to losing loved ones… in grief I have found myself again.. I’ve found my way back to my core and my own soul…

I’ve found gratitude in the moments, because, with experiences comes clarity… reflection and most of all an understanding, an understanding that people will say they will be with you when you are in your moment of despair… but it is actually not true…

It takes massive courage to step up and say “I have to face my mental and emotional trauma.” But, it takes equally as much courage to stand quietly by the side of someone facing the decision to face their depression head on… and to love them through it…

In the end you will heal, you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered.. you will be whole again, but you will never be the same again, nor should you be the same, nor should you want to! For you should want to grow and become more!! ~ The Motive 🙏🏼💕

 

Author: Only One, But a lion!

Only One; But A Lion! Writer, blogger and explorer of life... Writer, blogger and explorer of humanity-single dad-story teller-giver of hugs... wiper of tears- I am imperfect.. but hope is eternal 💕 Exploring the Motive of Conversation, events, who we are and how to heal from trauma... These are my words, from my soul, bound with hope, love and a willingness to share, to open the minds, hearts and souls of others ~ Hope - it’s the best and last of all things ~ The Motive

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