Nothing heals the past like time! And they can’t steal the love you’re born to find!
We are born in to the world as a blank canvas, spiritually and emotionally, we are here if we are lucky for a hundred years, then we return to the earth… if you believe in the soul’s journey then we may go on to live another lifetime, or maybe many others, who knows? You may have already lived many lifetimes?
But lets just take a breath and consider the reality, we are born almost as a blank canvas, although I have often believed that babies feel their mum’s energy and potentially their dads too… I know I loved my little-ones well before they came in to the world and took their first breath. Life’s energy is transferred, from person to person, soul to soul and spirit to spirit.
As babies we are innocent, we are not given a choice, we are the product of life. I have my own belief system, and often reflect on the things I know and my own emotional journey and the difference in my soul, spirit and physical essence, and believe me, we are all complicated and have different parts that make up the whole being that is you, me, us…. People!
So! Born to find love? I believe this, I truly believe that somewhere there is a soul that seeks to connect. People call them soulmates, or twin-flames, I do not profess to fully understand the product of those names, but I have spent time reading about them, and the explanations resonate with me. However, I think it is deeper than the written explanations. And it comes from a journey of many different times and places that a soul and spirit walks whilst upon its journey.
We are not given a choice, the adults that we find ourselves with when we come into the world are ours to deal with, so are the siblings, and the energy, experiences and actions they create along their journey too. Let’s leave siblings for a moment, and just focus on adults! We do not get to say no, as a 5-year-old I was shown first hand the physical experience of violence…
This is the point, every single one of us has walked the path of childhood, and on that journey, we begin to apply colour to our personalities. I read so many posts on media, on Instagram, speaking of being in the now, of letting go of broken people, and of shuttering out those who have hurt us… but this is exactly what broke these people as little-ones.. The reality is we are here for seventy or eighty years, we breath, we attempt to live, and we attempt to fit in… But there is the first problem! Fit in?
I love the idea of being unique, of attempting to find all of the parts of me, not just the physical being that is writing this piece for you, but the soul, the spiritual being, the essence that exists in my deeper conscience and subconsciousness… the one that can remember things that I may or may not have experienced in this lifetime.
People will read this, and some will roll their eyes, maybe not tune in to my blog again, some will shake their head, and say ok, some will feel the words and some, just a small few, will stand still, feel and understand the words, feeling the essence of them, and understanding that they too, have a deeper feeling of who they are and why they are here… there are so many different views of the world, cultures and beliefs, as children our imaginations are free and we can if we are nurtured let them explore the potential to believe in anything, and in that we are given the gift of total and free thought… However, as have shared, the fact that we are a blank canvas when we are born, will not always help.
I have loved, my god I have loved! I have experienced hate, pain and violence, I have experienced abandonment, and death…
And in the darkest moments, as those colours were painted on to my canvas, I let them create a picture my soul and spirt simply could not resonate with… The love, absolute love was lost in the darkness of the other layers that were applied as life was endured.
This I why love is so important, in meeting someone we think that it’s an opportunity to start out, a fresh beginning, but its not, we all have colours applied to our life’s canvas, the only time we were fresh was when we were born, and from that moment we started to create the us that we are today…
“Buddhists and specifically “Tsele Natstok Rangdrol” explains that the heart practices for each of the “Bardos” – this life – “Recognise this infinite variety of appearances as a dream, as nothing but projections, of your mind, illusory and unreal, without grasping at anything, rest in the wisdom of your “Rigpa” that transcends all concepts”
In the end we are created from our experiences, those are moments we chose to live, I now see and understand the love I have felt, some of which was deeply pure and some of which was perception, a form of love that was not deep enough to bring a different and more vibrant colour to life’s canvas… we are however, capable of totally re-painting our lives if we so wish, there is great fear in this decision and experience, mostly because at some stage we chose the colours ourselves too, we painted parts of the picture that is us, we co-created the reality we live in, not all of it, and sometimes depending on the parents, and siblings, not most of it.. but we are not free of the decisions and the brush strokes of life…
What about siblings, well they have the power to absolutely cause disruption in your life, and even when you chose to remove them, they are like an echo, they can be almost silent and then the noise from them resonates in to your life… I can not fully explain this, except to say they are bound to us in some way, maybe their life was painted with the same brushes and same paint, but the way the colour was applied will not be the same and you will have had a unique experience, even with the same parents.
But the love of a truly spiritual and soulful partner, someone who is intimately connected to your soul will be extraordinary, it will test you, extend you and force you to paint over the canvas of your life, it will often find ways to make you feel uncomfortable and even test your fortitude…
“in my case it forced me to look at my whole journey, and the things I had been hiding from and lies I had been telling myself…
It made me stop protecting others and hold them accountable for letting them darken the parts of life, and I needed to own the fact that id let them…”
love like this is challenging, because it feels like the person you love can see all the way into you, and they will call you out…
life’s hardest lesson will be present at this time, the same person may well be on the same journey, the difficulty is being on the same page and in the same place at the same time, I have found that you can love the right person, just at the wrong time of your life…
What has come to light is this: Time lets the paint applied to your life’s canvas fade, and if you spend time in the sun then you can in time re-paint the whole picture, it’s still you and you are still a work in progress…
For all of my mistakes and lessons I simply write these words as my vision and the new colours I have on my own brush.. “How transformed would the world and our experience of it would be if each of us, whilst we lived could say this Tibetan prayer?”
“May I be a protector to those without protection,
A leader for those who journey,
And a boat, a bridge, a passage for those desiring the further shore.
May the pain of every living creature be completely cleared away.
May I be the doctor and the medicine, and may I be the nurse for all sick beings in the world,
Until everyone is healed.
Just like space and great elements such as earth,
May I always support the life of all boundless creatures.
And until they pass away with from the pain,
May I also be the source of life for all the realms of varied beings
That reach into the ends of space”
The reality is we, all of us begin our journey as innocent souls, we have the emotional muscle memory to get back to that place where we were when we were born, that place is simply this: They “People” can not steal the one soul you were born to love – Pete ~ The Motive 🙂