My journey – My truth! My gratitude to you all…

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So… for the friends and followers of my blog you will know I have had a personal journey… A journey of gratitude for life. But also a journey of attempting to find myself and salvage my soul from the wreckage of my professional career…

As a CEO of public listed business I found myself facing a question of the heart.. in a world of corruption… stand tall and do the right thing or let fear and the potential to have my life ripped to shreds influence my decisions…
There are no words I can share with you all to explain the feelings of standing in the federal court of Australia and having to fight for your life… It has shown me that I need to dig deeper still.. Not just to stand defeated, but to hold my head up and say… NO! This is not how my story ends…
One of my friends sent me a message after yesterday appearance in the federal court…
“Hey Pete! “Tom” tells me it was a precedence setting affair today, so well done! Time to reflect  on the journey you have been on and be proud of your stance against the might of the machine. Power to you mate! Chat soon. – Gary Harding” 
 
We are here to live life, not to let others control our souls, minds and the way we feel about ourselves, “the might of the machine” – an interesting point of view, I was told my decision to stand in truth will re define Australian case law… that others will benefit from my decisions to stand and speak out..
What I want to share is this… I am not the only person who lost in this experience. Fear and my need to hide myself from the onslaught means I hurt others whilst I was hurting too… those who I loved and who loved me… if I’m to stand in my honour and honesty this is my biggest regret and failure… I also know I gave the biggest part of my heart and soul to support another in their trauma and life changes whilst placing mine second or sometimes last… that is who I am.. to understand the needs of others before my own… there is courage in those decisions… I own them too.. And I’ve forgiven myself… in that forgiveness comes courage…
I wrote a post recently about men making mistakes and that if they are good men and they own themselves, they deserve love too… I stand by the words I wrote.. and the love they were wrapped with..
“ I am not perfect, I am human. I am not invincible. But I have become fearless! Fearless in my pursuit of wisdom and need to do what is right”
This post is not really full of wisdom, it’s more about telling you the truth about me as a person. Not hiding from the battle of hurt, depression or pain, but speaking out about it. Telling the truth about the fallout, the casualties and people hurt, the fact that I needed to feel I had to lie to cover up what in the end is actually a moment of courage – The Motive 🙏🏽

Author: Only One, But a lion!

Only One; But A Lion! Writer, blogger and explorer of life... Writer, blogger and explorer of humanity-single dad-story teller-giver of hugs... wiper of tears- I am imperfect.. but hope is eternal 💕 Exploring the Motive of Conversation, events, who we are and how to heal from trauma... These are my words, from my soul, bound with hope, love and a willingness to share, to open the minds, hearts and souls of others ~ Hope - it’s the best and last of all things ~ The Motive

One thought on “My journey – My truth! My gratitude to you all…”

  1. Wow – standing in federal court must have been very scary – but a massive well done for standing your ground and to make a change in the law . Sounds like you have been to hell and back . But you have obviously come out stronger and you have such great values and morals . I wish you all the very best . Onwards and upwards and don’t let the b………s grind you down 👌👌👌👌. Wendy

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